Had a sweet and weird dream yesterday.. Dreamt of both of us.. Thou it was only the process, it was so nice and sweet.. For a moment, i thot it was for real.. It's definitely a nice feeling! But dream and reality is always the opposite.. So I know it will never happen.. But after this dream, I realise, maybe I could really start anew.. Of course I do hope I can.. But how and where to start? I really duno..
Recently, "life w/o a meaning" feeling is getting stronger and stronger.. Getting super sian with life.. Everyday the same thing, same ppl, same process.. No excitement at all.. Loneliness everywhere.. How to deal with it? I duno.. Am just losing it.. As much TV as I can get, it doesn't drive away the devil.. Haiz.. Sad life.. How much longer should I spend my life w/o happiness? Am I only suited to find happiness in dreams? If so, I would rather slp my life away...
