Been having a busy week.. Haiz.. All because of work and auditor from MAS coming on Monday!! Damn.. Everything gotta be done and I still have to support normal daily work and the 3 managers.. Haiz.. Really busy.. Dun even have time to eat and work like 12 hrs a day.. But i do enjoy work la.. Hehe.. Cuz of someone.. Hehe.. I bet some of you know who i'm referring to la.. Haha.. On thurs, i only knew he would be working late but din know he left quite late.. N he called me after he left office and he was shocked tt im still in office.. Haha.. So he asked if i wanna go have dinner w him.. His treat.. I dun actually wan to but seeing that my managers are leaving, i gotta leave too, so why not!! Haha.. Had a great time chilling out with him.. Hearing his life story.. I do admire him!! He's really quite capable. Seldom see such guys around nowadays.. How i wish i will have a bf 3/4 like him.. Cuz he is a bit too ambitious!! But nice fren to have la.. Hope we will continue to be so good and hope he will continue to help me as much!! Hehe.. Another new fren in my life!! Yeah! Haha.. But thanks to him that my life is a little bit more happier and at least when i get too angry and unhappy at work, he can cheer mi up a little.. And looking at his life, it makes mi wanna find a aim and goal.. For the past few days, im thinking, what do i wan? What should i achieve and by when? How can i live on and on without knowing what i wan in life? Haiz.. But i really got no aim or goal.. How?? Maybe i should think more till i find my goal.. Else, i will be wasting my life away..

Haiz.. Going back to work tmr!! Sunday!! But nvm, 2x pay!! Haha.. Can't wait for monday to come.. Cuz tt's the day my 1 week will be up!! Hehe..

Have been watching this taiwan drama serial.. Called "The Outsiders".. It's a very nice show which really show you what does "Ren Zai Jiang Hu, Sheng Bu You Ji" this meaning.. And the main actor is damn cool, tall, handsome and cute!! Hehe.. Crazy bout him now.. Finding his songs, pic, news, everything.. Haha.. He will be appearing in tonight's 740pm show on Channel U!! Can't wait!!! ;P

From this show, I realise, love, if strong enuff, even 2 people from 2 different world could work things out and stay together.. Therefore, i sorta find a little answer to all my "whys" that i have been asking myself.. Love fades and every little thing doesn't clique anymore.. And we start to question each other, quarrel, fight for our rights, stand to our decision.. And when a simple question of "Do u still feel for me?", seems so hard to answer.. I guess, when any couple walk till this part of a relationship, it might be hard to carry on.. There's no forever in this world, i do believe it more than anyone does.. Everyone that has been in ur life, will come and stay for a while and eventually, they will leave you. Only u, urself will never leave urself alone.. How pathetic life can be.. Or mayb my life can be.. Maybe our ancestor should have nv taught us or rather come out with a word like "forever".. It doesn't make sense to me anymore and whoever is still naive enuff to believe in it, good luck!! I know from now on, I shall just treasure the moment and nv hope that it will last forever. At least now i know, and have learn a painful lesson and grow up.. Like what they say, "Growing up is a painful experience".. Especially when everyone is so full of happiness.. Not that I dun wan them to be happy and I've always pray that everyone will be happy but sometimes, it's too much for me.. Sometimes, juz sometimes, i am just too envy, too jealous, till the point where I hate them all.. And I start to ask, Y am i left out? Maybe God has forgotten bout me, just like I have forgotten bout him, sometimes.. Where's the happiness I use to have? Gone with the wind? I tink so.. I know i need to return to church once again.. Mayb till then, will i find my happiness again.. And i will start from today..

I love this song, now..

Breathe Again
Have you wondered how it feels when it''s all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start anew
Never knowing where you''re going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now I just close my eyes and say

I just want to breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little
Live a little more

I just wanna face today
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little
Try a little more, I''ll breathe again

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of luck, It''s a brand new start
That might just work my way, No need to walk away
Don''t want to live on life replay

Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn