Yeah! Just another 2 weeks!! 2 weeks and i'm outta Singapore in Phuket! I really can't wait.. Since mar till now, both me and darling have been wanting to go away so much.. Finally, it's coming! Hehe... We have finally booked and secure our accomodation so now it's only planning the itenary! And yueh rong and husband-to-be is also joining us on the trip! Haha.. Wat a surprise! So we are travelling in a group of 4, so we can help each other take photos.. Hehe... So so so looking forward to 13 May!!
Other than Phuket trip, I'm also waiting anxiously for SIM acceptance letter.. I'm even dreaming that I got the package.. Haha.. Probably I'm really thinking too much.. But I guess I just very excited to go back to school.. Cuz I really feel like taking a break from work.. Esp in Citi.. Nt ez at all.. But I'm glad tt i've build up quite a network of relationship there and nobody hates me (i guess)..
~~A little message to my Dearest Beh Beh~~ Glad that we've manage to survive the bad times and ur patience and tolerance is really appreciated! I can really see that you are surpressing your anger/"APness", trying to be nice to me.. Really appreciate it and thank you for that! U're really the sweetest guy I've ever met! "Ni ai wo wor"!! Hehe..
Yeah.. Like the title says.. I'm tired and lazy.. Back aching badly.. Im realli old... In the past, I could still tk it but not now anymore...
It has definitely been a long long time since I've felt tis way.. Yes, broke down but tried to control.. Luckily I had Nad with mi to hear mi out.. I guess she feels my pain.. I had a conclusion that all guys are the same. When things happen, they say the same words, react the same way.... I thot he was really different from the past ones but he's just another one of them. Saying sweet nothings to mi!? I'm not gonna buy tt! I'm no little innocent, naive ger here.. I've been thru quite alot and I know what is what.. I dun appreciate sweet talks at all! It's all crap to mi. If u mean it, show it to mi... To hell with all ur sweet words.. I hate it! I tink guys will never understand how gers feel and tink.. Mayb gers too... We will always be 2 very different beings.... And when 2 are too different, it's really hard to be together.. I seriously dun wanna try so hard, put in so much effort to mk it work. Mayb i'm selfish as many will say so, but I'm juz protecting myself. I nv ever wanna b a fool again..
I really feel so sianz...... Work and Him.. I hav to learn how to manage and handle both.. It's really not easy and I feel so tired.. At work, I have to put up with the bitches.. After work, sometimes, I have to learn to accomodate, give in, compromise with him. Sometimes, I am just too numb and tired to get angry with anyone of them. I'll just swallow it and go to slp.. Mayb tt's y the stress and anger has been building up, just like hot lava.. And today, it's the day of eruption! I suddenly become so emotional, stress and tired that I feel I'm basically floating....
Yeah.. Wat about life? Life consists of so many people, decisions, choices, activities, etc etc.. As you grow older, u face so much more.. Sometimes, I really would rather be a kid. I believe most of you reading this would think tt way... Those that are pessimistic might just tink that dying earlier would be good too! Haha..
Oh well, life for me ever since the start of 2006 was not too bad.. But lotsa turning point i guess.. From single to attached, from 1/2 yr contract to 1 yr contract, from fatter to slimmer(i tink so), from less work to more work, etc.. Work still plays a very impt and big part of my life.. Cuz mon-fri, im facing it! And it has brought me the most headache and pain.. And now, again, I have to tink.. To study or to stay for another unconfirmed role in work. Both has its own pros and cons.. I really duno wat to choose.. Both are so unconfirmed and in the initial stage.. How should I grab both opportunities? I dun tink I can.. Cuz I can't afford to be greedy and want the best of both world... Haiz... Advices from colleague and bf, both are useful.. But one was harsh and kinda pissed mi off! But well, I shld not let my stuff affect the relationship I have with people... I shld control my temper and forget bout the whole conversation...
But these few days, everything wasn't going too smoothly for us.. Ever since the chalet, disagreement starts.. Mayb it's becuz we start to know each other better and wants the best 4 both but it's just disruptive!
