We've confirmed our holiday to be on the 2nd Aug to 5th Aug to Perhentian Island. Hehe... So excited! I hope the snorkeling and resort would turn out good. As this resort that we choose wasn't the best choice. We wanted the better resort as they have their own house reef. But it was fully-booked. Even 2 months in advance... So sad... Seems that the island is kinda population! Cuz resorts are mostly fully-booked!

New Cocohut Resort is the one we've booked. I like the exterior design.. But i'm not too sure about the interior until I'm there myself. The toilet looks like erm... public toilets? But cleaner.. And the huts are made of timber, so maybe there's termites? And the bed looks juz normal. And all I hope would be for the seaview out from the room can make up for the very basic setup of the room! Anyway, I guess we won't stay in room most of the time, so should be alright!

That's the hut that we'll be staying in

View from the restaurant

Pulau Rawa - 1 of our snorkeling spot

Pulau Susu Daru - another of our snorkeling spot

Yeah!!! Finally! It's coming out!

Ok, what I meant was a movie that's gonna be released end of this yr or beginning of the next! I'm reading this love novel by Cecelia Ahern.. Great storyline.. And it totally describe my feelings more than a year ago. It was a book that makes me wanna cry on mrt... Yes.. I usually dun feel touch by any storybook until I read this! So this is the second time I'm reading the book and I remembered that they were saying that someone is gonna flim the story into a movie, how true!! Long-awaited movie for me! I'll definitely watch it, hope it'll be good. Everyone, go watch it if u like romance movie.

A little summary of the story~~~
Holly and Gerry were childhood sweetheart. All their life, they're together. Friends and family couldn't deny that they were the perfect match. But one day, they were force to leave each other, by God's will, as Gerry was diagnoised with brain cancer. So they spend the rest of his days together, never left each other's sight. Even till the very last breath of Gerry... After Gerry's departure, Holly was all alone. She lost her best friend, her soulmate, her husband, her everything. So she let herself be depress, stayed @ home and never step out for weeks.

One fine day, she decided she should go visit her mum and also to pick up her mail that has been left there for more than a month. She thot it wasn't anything important as the most important thing/person has already left her. But to her surprise, it wasn't just a tiny little piece of letter, it was a parcel. She thot it was from Gerry as on the top of the parcel, it wrote 'The List'. It was a list tt Gerry joked abt how he would need to write dw all the things to remind Holly's of her carelessness. But well, Gerry's dead, she knows that for a fact, so it won't be from him. But still she was eager to know who it was from.

So home she went to open the parcel. Out fell 10 envelopes n a letter. Gerry's handwriting! Yes, he really wrote her a list. And all 10 envelopes had months indicated on it. Gerry wanted to help Holly to live on, happily. So he wants her to do smth for herself n for him, every month, hoping to give Holly the strength to move on. So what were written in the small envelopes? Haha.. Go watch the movie! ;P

Damn bored at work. Today really got nothing to do. Nothing @ all. So I was surfing the net as usual. Replying to emails from not customers or colleagues but.. hehe... friends..

So i still have this urge to splurge on shopping. So I went to eMALL and browse thru almost all the online shops. Haha... But today, my mood is more into lingerie! But eMALL doesn't have much lingerie. So gotta depend on Google!!

Sexy lingeries! OMG! Some are really sexy... Haiz.. If only I had the body of those models, I would get all of them! Haha... But maybe I should juz get myself one huh... ;P

Oh, of course, i saw lotsa sex toys.. Hehe... There's this vibrator, it's called "Special Edition World Cup 2006"... Haha... Funny...

I'm having the gastric pain from the Vitamin B Complex. It always come and go fast. But I wonder why it happens. Only vitamin B. Why? Maybe my body rejects it cuz it wants to stay depress and stress? Haha.. Click here to find out what I mean.

Good things come to an end

Bad things come to an end

Everything comes to an end

Since we've reached the end, wat's left?

Sometimes, we just try so hard. So much so that it doesn't even matter. Just like Linkin Park's "In the End"...

Should I cancel or go for it? If I go, wat does it mean?

I shouldn't tink so much. Too much time has been waste on thinking. Probably tt explains why I'm so blank out these few days.

I need to go jogging. Join me? Swimming oso can. Badminton oso not too bad. But shopping would be the best of all!

Ok, my thots are all jumbled up. I can't blog in paragraph today. It's just so scattered. Everywhere.

Maybe non will believe, but it's true.

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I went for a breather, hoping to seek solace. I found the place. I sat there, looking out to people running pass, look up into the sun setting sky (hoping to see God) and thinking nothing in the head. Smses came in from a concern fren and another smone. But it doesn't help. So I took out my book which I've decided to re-read. Once again, the book made me relax. Time seems to pass by fast as I was so engross in the book. It wasn't too long before I realise i couldn't read as there wasn't light. So I made my way out of the plc. I took a stroll back, slowly.. I was just walking n walking n walking with my iPod on. I kinda felt numb to everything. I kinda couldn't tink. I was juz so free from everything till I actually believe that my heart has stopped beating for a moment. Becuz I had to struggle to pull myself back to reality. That indescribable feeling is juz too scary. I really felt as if my soul had left the body for tt short while. Till now, I still couldn't explain what had happened. I know it sounds crazy. But I really had tt moment. The moment when the used-to-be-familiar surrounding looks alien to u, the brain is nt thinking and u just couldn't make sense of a single thing tt's around u. Even the song tt is playing on my iPod seems so weird.

I still have the after-effect now. When I'm in a crowd, it seems that I'll be in a trance once in a while and I'll have to snap myself bk to reality. It's nt gd. But I guess I'm still sane. Else, I wun b blogging.

But what has happened?

Why is it that the resort is so popular? I'm so sad.... It's also fully booked for August.... Why why why???? We have to re-decide which resort we want now... Else, no holiday for us..

Anyway, i've managed to work through monday, wednesday, thursday & friday!!! Yeah! What an achievement! Haha...

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It's our day of the month again! 17mths! Wow... Been really a wonderful journey. Full of ups and downs but yet we're still holding on. Guess it's gonna get tougher but I hope we'll just make it thru! Thx to the people ard us tt helped us along the way. U know who u r, and we're really greatly appreciative for your support! :)

Thou it's such a special day to us, but we've decided to celebrate with a true fren! Hehe..

Maybe i'm juz paranoid/sensitive. But I really don't feel good about it.

Ok, monday sucks! I hate my work! I guess most of you know that. I complain to everyone I see... So u know how sucky it gets here...

Anyway, I met a 'new' colleague in the office. Thou I see him around since last 2 weeks, but it's today, then he officially introduce himself. One thing about caucasian is that, they are extremely friendly and welcoming. I was given a new seat and he happen to walk by and just said 'hi'. That's what I call friendly! It just makes you feel good. I guess many Singaporeans are still far far far away from being friendly. We usually ignore people who doesn't have any "business deal" with us. As much as I hate to admit, we're basically too practical.

Anyway, I'm going on leave tomorrow! Haha.. So it makes monday easier to pass by. Oh ya, I was on MC on fri. Cool huh! But, it's all unpaid. So it's nt tt cool afterall... :(

Calling all my dearest friends!! Let's go out whenever you are free!! I'm so bored with life... I need some excitement to give me a reason to "live on"!

Yup, too bored @ work, so decided to change the look of my blog.. Been a long time since i've done that...

Yeah, I like the blue sea and the girl jumping in the mid air.. It's juz has a calming effect on me. Probably becuz I juz love the sea. "& just let go". Yeah, it's wat we always hear but not do. Haha.. Anyway, I just like the template!

~~Oh! Smone in the office just offered me a drink for tea break. He's an Australian! Cool, but I rejected it.. Cuz I still have my BK drink.. I thot I was forgotten here.. Hmmm...

I've gotten myself a damn damn useless and boring job.. I'm so sad.. There goes my plan to work OT, to work in a bank, to gain some knowledge, to experience busy work life... It won't happen for the next 2 mths+... I tell u, I'm seriously sad.. Thou I'm in a bank, it seems so dead here.. People ain't tt friendly, work are really nt stressful nor heavy. So I dun understand why are they hiring a temp to sit and do nothing for practically the whole day. I feel so cheated... It was as if the work load is damn heavy during the interview. But the true situation is, it's not true. They seriously do not need a temp. Really dun... I really dun wanna sit and get paid.. I feel so awkward here.. I just wanna get out!! But they are juz so irritating cuz i'm bonded until the day they do nt nd mi, else i'll have to pay them! It's so stupid!!! I shouldn't have signed the contract... ARGH!!!!! Can you imagine I'm juz dragging the time to do 1 task tt takes only 5mins to more than an hour? Ask me how to do tt? Juz surf the net, blog, go toilet, go tk water, go hav long lunches and come bk to tt 5min task. And the best part of all is, I have to go round asking people if they've got anything for me to do. And all they can say is, "Nothing @ the moment. :)" So wat should I do back @ my desk? Continue to surf the net, blog, go toilet and go pantry. Haiz.. I hate this kinda life!!! Luckily I'm going on a trip to Perhentian nx mth, else I really duno what to surf!! Haiz...

I miss Citibank...

Met an ex-colleague on MRT the other day.. He updated me on the happenings in Citi.. Makes me wanna go back and work!! @ least I won't be so lonely, so bored and so free. And I can also learn more from them as they are now a bigger team.... Haiz.. And one of the other ex-colleague smsed me and said they are actually looking for temp!!!! OMG!!! How I wish they could pay for my breaching of contract and hire me. But it's not possible, cuz no one in the right mind would do that for a temp.... :(

Anyway, back to the trip. i'm confirmed going to Perhentian Island! Yeah! It's just beside Redang but it's nt as well known as Redang so it isn't tt commercialised! Good! But the bad thing abt nt commercialised is that Singapore doesn't have much tour package. In fact, I only saw 1 so far. So to book for the trip, I can only depend on internet where the travel agency are mainly from Malaysia.. So I guess I'm gonna suffer the exchange rate difference.. The information on the island are really limited... Have been searching and searching but the information are more or less similar.. Sianz!! So after I'm back, I should put up more information!! Haha...

Photos of the island!!


~~Perhentian Island~~


This is where I'm gonna stay!

Ok, cool isn't it? Coral reef are juz right in front of our room, off the beach!!! And the snorkeling trip will bring us to swim with big sea turtles and even sharks! OMG! I can't wait to go man!! But the journey from SG to the resort will take approx. 11hrs by coach and speedboat.. But I guess it'll be longer for us as we're gonna try taking our own transport to JB and buy a bus ticket from there.. So probably 13hrs??!! Haha...

Everyone has their history and past. No one is perfect. And of course, we are not answerable to anyone about our past except God.

I had a friend who told me this b4 but I couldn't agree nor understand what she meant. Now I do.. It's what we experience in the past that makes us who we are today. Yes, we are still very affected @ times, we regret, we hope to turn the hands of time back, we try to invent "time machine", but we all know, it's never gonna happen. Personally, I do have regrets but if we could see it from the positive angle, it's through the regrets that we had, we learnt to treasure. Because we never wanna have the same regrets again. It's part and parcel of life to fall and stand up again, isn't it? Everyone has to experience this. And when we are able to pick ourselves up and move forward again, it's our turning point. Something we can share with others, something we will remember and not repeat the same mistake again.

I guess the courage to stand up and try walking again is the toughest yet the strongest part. I've experience it myself and I really feel 'stronger' than before. And of course during the struggling period, support and encouragement are the most important factors. And I still remember the people who have helped me and I sincerely treasure and thank them till today. Thou words are not said, I believe they've felt it thru actions! :) And so I hope, with the 'strength' I have today, I can do a good job and help my loved ones and friends.

I really do not care about the past, it's the future that I wanna see results. So people out there, if you are still thinking or mulling over the past events, stop it!! Don't look back, we should all look ahead! :)