Been so long since I've blogged. I've so much to blog about. Just too lazy... And too much had happened recently.. I almost couldn't tk the last blow. But life goes on....

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On 02 Oct 2007, I lost my beloved cousin... Forever...

It wasn't meant to be. At least that's wat I feel and was told. But the forces were too strong for us to defeat it. So we lost him. To the other world. I still miss him everyday. Sometimes, I even think that everything that I went thru was just a nightmare. But no.. It has been more than 2 weeks. I saw every piece of proof that he has reallydeparted. But I still can't believe that's the truth. Self-denial. Very bad. Every night, I hope he'll come to my dream and talk to me. But ever since he left, he nv came. Maybe when he has settled down, he'll come visit me. I'm still waiting for that day.. I believe it will come.

For the past 23 years of our life, we've been the closest pair. I knew more about him than any other cousins. He'll call once in a while to update his life and check out mine. We'll see each other at least once a year. Whenever he's in SG, he'll definitely call me. He's always that cheeky, funny and easy to get along. We had a very special bond. I know he'll agree too. Thou we've drifted slighted apart in the recent years, this special bond has never been broken. Even till that day I visited him in hospital. The look in his eyes, I'll nv forget. It was special, different from how he looked at the others. But that was the last eye contact I had with him... The last warmth that I gave him...

Well, I hope, somehow, he would be able to sense how much I miss him & will visit me in my dreams... And definitely pray that he'll be happier in the other place. I hope we'll meet again, but wen, I really duno...