Yah, it's thurs lunch time.. But here i am blogging.. Din go for lunch. Had quite a heavy breakfast sponsered by my colleagues.. It's nice knowing tt i have colleagues who cared, be it guys or gals..

Monday was doing OT till 1030pm.. Super tired.. But no choice.. Took a cab home but able to claims cuz my mgr will claim it for mi.. So good!! But din had dinner tt day.. Told my colleague about it the nx day and she went carrefour during lunch and bought me a whole box of Orea.. So damn touched i tell u.. And tt tian ming guy gave me a bar of nutrition bar.. Nice of him too.. But i cant help but get irritated at the sight of him... I mean he is a handsome, gentleman, caring, polite guy BUT he is boring lorz.. Super lorz!! He will ask me the same set of qns EVERYDAY!! I can even memorise the way he say... Haiz... And today agn, it's thurs and i predict tt he will ask mi to watch OC.. N he did!! ARGH!! I told him straight to the face tt i wont watch.. I dun like... He kept on insisting i shld juz watch 1 episode.. Wat's wrong with him?? I dun understand lorz... Haiz.. N he like to ask mi about wat i do on wkends la, wat i did the night b4 la, whr i go la, wat time reach home la, got watch the fann wong show or nt, got watch thw gallen lo show or nt... Haiz... Wat has it got to do with him seriously lorz.. My friends say he likes me therefore wan to ask so much.. But i seriously dun tink so.. I juz kept myself away fr him as far as i can for this whole wk... N he seems to notice and asked mi if im ok or nt.. And asked if im unhappy or nt.. Of course i deny!! Cuz im happy but nt wen i talk to u.. Haha.. Cant tell him tt lehz.. But he is still treating me very nice... Bought mi bread this morning.. Left it on my table.. Im touched la.. But nd to get rid of the irritating feeling he is giving mi.. Mayb we cld b better frens... But tt's all in the future la... Nw im still trying to "build a bridge"... Have nt get over it yet... If u r tinking wat i meant, then it comes fr this sentence "If someone you love hurts you, you cry a river, build a bridge and get over it."

It's actually a song's title.. Im chatting with this person nw. I know so much bout him yet we r like strangers... Depressing.. When will i ever get out of this shit? Sometimes, i cant tk it.. I duno wat to do to myself to mk myself better.. I tried to work.. Till im exhausted.. Till i cant absorb anymore.. Till i created prob for my mgrs.. I wan to do my best.. I really dun wish my personal stuff to affect my work.. I wanna b professional.. But sometimes it's hard... Things dun go the way we want.. Im feeling the stress there.. I wish tt someone could lend me a shoulder..

He's happy im moving on.. I thot he still miss me.. Im wrong.. He juz needed to tell me smth.. Nw tt i know wat he wanna say, he is bk to his norm... Im naive.. Very very naive.. How i wish there's a potion tt would erase him fr my memory lane.. Thou it's gd memories, i rather dun wan it at all.. He's really mking things difficult 4 mi.. I really feel like leaving sg.. I really wan to go study smwhr where it's a total new place so there wont b any memories of him.. But i need the money.. If i could tk a loan, i would tk.. I juz wan to leave.. Who can help me? Seriously.. I nd a long brk far away fr him.. It's only then i would give up hopes...

I thot it will b a gd wk ahead.. Juz when im starting to feel better, i saw him.. I heard his news.. It wont b a gd week anymore..

It's my new blog address.. Seems like a new beginning for mi.. Hope it will... There's a meaning behind the change... But i wont say it here.. Ppl who knows me well enuff will know why... Will try to change the blogskin soon so it will look really like a new beginning!! Stay tuned!