Wat about myself?? I guess im very different. Very different from everyone ard me. I duno if i can ever make people understand me anymore. I have very different thinking of many things nowadays.. I could see that no one understands, truly.. But I know I weren't who I am if not for the things that happen..

I no longer trust anyone, esp guys.. I dun trust love too.. Friendship, maybe.. Family, maybe.. Colleagues, definitely no.. So im left w myself.. I dun even trust myself.. I know im weak.. Very.. I've forgotten how to be strong.. Or rather I had enuff of being strong, act strong, pretend im ok.. Sometimes, things just go out of hand and I really had no will of living on.. I know life is beautiful, I know there's is something more to life other than love.. But i guess it's easy for ppl to say tt.. I dun deny the fact tt i am totally affected and depressed over what happened 2 months ago and i seriously duno when will i ever stand up.. I did all i could but nothing helps.. I dun mean to curse any couple out there, but when i look at u guys, i tink of the past.. I cant stand the sight of it cuz my heart is aching.. Imagine how many couples r out there everyday? And thou i tried to look away, i can nv escape from it.. So imagine the heart ache i will get everyday.. And frens ard me talk about their bf, things the bf do, everything about the bf.. Who will tink of how i feel? I dun say it, doesn't mean it's not affecting me.. And cuz they r my frens, i will listen to wat they say..

I know i am very emotional now.. It's the PMS.. I know.. But i seriously feel like juz giving up.. It's 2 much for anyone to understand y i wanna give up... Or mayb one day, someone will juz understand..