I'm not what you tink I am.. Seriously.. If u tink i am not "that" sad, that's becuz u've not seen it.. I'm not as strong as u tink i am.. Too much has happen recently and it's disturbing my "peaceful" life.. I really duno how I held on till today, sometimes, I would really rather give up! Everyone around me is practically living so damn happily.. I do admit I'm jealous, so very jealous of all of you out there, but what can I do? And by the way, who would REALLY care if I'm getting on good and well.. I just hate everything that had happened!

Please dun tell me how happy ur life is anymore... I wish to hear no more of these!

Oh well, someone said I haven been blogging.. Have been bz recently but duno with wat.. Haha... It's finally sunday... My day of rest.. So happy.. Been bz from mon to fri at work and sat with guitar practising and lesson.. Only sunday, I can really sit and do wat I wan.. Use to think that I would be very bored during weekends and fear the loneliness.. But guess I'm starting to plan for my wkend to fill it up with stuff.. It does help drive away the loneliness but not all times.. Well, guess that's my kind of life from now on..

So many things happen recently, but juz cant remember it now.. One thing that I cannot forget would be dreams.. I've been having dreams of him and him.. It's juz driving mi crazy.. It's juz so untrue and yet I have to dream about it everytime.. Haiz... Anyone out there know how to interpret dreams? Cuz all these have to stop! It's kinda disrupting...