It has been more than a week after the "not-so-dramtic" event but still, I'm suffering from the after-effect... I can't wake up for morning classes at all. My body just tells me to slp and skip the classes... I tried going for the 2nd half of the classes instead, but I failed, on both lessons. I sort of hate the feeling, but what can I do? I really feel the need to rest.. And even thou I had enough slp, I'll feel slpy/drowsy the whole day. It's really bad.. I can't even write well. But I'm slowly regaining the strength to write properly.. I'm glad.. I just hope this will be over very soon. It's disrupting my daily life. Even when I'm out, I nd to avoid crowds. Actually, I'm still fear walking among the crowd.. I'd rather walk take the long route.. Haiz... Basically, I feel like a weakling for the past week...

I really can't explain the boredom inside me... All day long, I'll ask people ard if they feel that life is too boring. Else if nt, I'll ask them if they ever thot they were suffering from depression. I duno wat's wrong with me... I just feel that I'm not the "normal" Eve anymore... What has changed? I'm searching for the answer myself. I just feel I nd smth to spike my life. What is the thing? I would like to know too... Recently, I can cry for nothing.. Really nothing... Probably I'm too stress, but what am I stress with? I'm not sure.. I duno how to describe these feelings of mine to anyone.. It's just undescribable. And I'm getting so impatient. Even if I can't get the notes or rhythm right while playing the guitar, I'll get frustrated with myself! It's not as if I've tried playing for long. It's only twice or so.. I'm really losing it! I nd help but I duno where to get it from. And if you are unhappy and can't understand why am I always writing my inner thots here rather than sharing with you, I'm sorry to say that, I have the freedom to write whatever I want in this space of mine! U know who u are. Get it clear, this is my space. I dun have to answer to anyone on whatever is written. And it is here and in my own private diary that I can express myself freely, without seeking any common understanding nor get interupted while writing my thots. I guess, most bloggers would agree with me..