"Humans are the only animal that will conceal their feelings.."

Isn't it true? I think so. Think about it, how many time did you hid ur feelings in front of someone? Be it love, hate, anger, sadness, happiness, etc.. I guess everyone of us does that. Probably it's good that we can do so cuz it won't affect the other party. But it might not always do us good. So, if we don't conceal our true feeling, can we really show it out? I believe the answer is a big "NO". Cuz being a human being, we have to put ourselves into others' shoes. We have to consider their feelings. That's life being a person. If there's another choice, I'll ask God to make me an animal. Any animal will do. Even if the lifespan is only 1 day of a human being.

Other than concealing our true feelings, I realise that relationship/feelings between people fades, just like colours fade. We can never find the same old feelings we had for one another after awhile. Unless someone new comes along. Isn't it pathetic? Probably that's why I do not wish to live too long. I'd rather have a short life and enjoy the relationship between others and myself, than to see it slowly fades away...

Reason why I had so much thots today was simply becuz of (T). I duno if I had done the right thing by telling T the right things to do in T's life. I've always wanted T to share my thoughts but apparently, when I'm thinking right but do not want things to be the right way, T seems to always agree with me. I feel that I've taught T abit too much. And one day, after learning so much, T would realise that it's time to move on, to a higher level, to a better teacher. But I really couldn't control myself by not telling T the right things to do. I'm a contradicting person, I know. But I do not wish to let T continue doing what T is doing and just stay there watching. I even taught T how to handle me. I feel so stupid now... Cuz T is starting to practise what I've taught. It's really helping T to feel happier but now, I'm not. So I started concealing my feelings. I started to hid and try to ignore my own feelings. And slowly, I felt that everything is fading away. But I can't take back all those words I've said to T. It's just too late and too bad. The harder I tried to make things back to the way they used to be, the worst it is. Happiness doesn't live long anymore. It comes for a while, but it goes off for a long time. Underlying problems that we've buried for a while will eventually come out. Unless there's a solution, but it's really sad to say, so far, there's no solution.

I should go and have my instant noodles now and conceal my feelings for awhile..