I went for a breather, hoping to seek solace. I found the place. I sat there, looking out to people running pass, look up into the sun setting sky (hoping to see God) and thinking nothing in the head. Smses came in from a concern fren and another smone. But it doesn't help. So I took out my book which I've decided to re-read. Once again, the book made me relax. Time seems to pass by fast as I was so engross in the book. It wasn't too long before I realise i couldn't read as there wasn't light. So I made my way out of the plc. I took a stroll back, slowly.. I was just walking n walking n walking with my iPod on. I kinda felt numb to everything. I kinda couldn't tink. I was juz so free from everything till I actually believe that my heart has stopped beating for a moment. Becuz I had to struggle to pull myself back to reality. That indescribable feeling is juz too scary. I really felt as if my soul had left the body for tt short while. Till now, I still couldn't explain what had happened. I know it sounds crazy. But I really had tt moment. The moment when the used-to-be-familiar surrounding looks alien to u, the brain is nt thinking and u just couldn't make sense of a single thing tt's around u. Even the song tt is playing on my iPod seems so weird.
I still have the after-effect now. When I'm in a crowd, it seems that I'll be in a trance once in a while and I'll have to snap myself bk to reality. It's nt gd. But I guess I'm still sane. Else, I wun b blogging.
