I can't wait for 1/8/07, 12pm. It's the time where I will be free from work, stress, unhappiness, boredom and most importantly, SINGAPORE!!! Yeah, I can't wait to get out of this stress city.

Haha... I'll be out from 1st till 6th! Kinda long for 4d3n but well, transport takes abt 1/2 a day per way.. Long, but I guess we'll enjoy it!

I still haven finish packing while my darling has already packed on wkend and left his bag @ my hse.. Haha.. Well, usual me, slack and slack till the very last minute. But luckily, I've done up a travel packing list, I'll just have to rely on the list to pack my bag. Haha... A very good way to ensure that I dun forget important stuff to pack. The 'Note' function on my W810i helps a great deal too! I tink it's really really an useful function for ppl like me, forgetful! Haha...

Ok, shld concentrate on work now. Not as if I got work to do la... Haha... Juz act! Tt's wat I've been doing for the past 1 mth plus.. But it's ok. I'm going to not have to act busy for the next few days! So ppl, continue to work hard ya?! ;P I know I'm bad... Ok la, I'll share w all of you my trip photos when I'm back k?! Haha...

Out!~~~

Am reading another book(If you could see me now) by Cecelia Ahern. First half of the book was boring. But the next half was intriguing. It's like fairy-tale kinda story which I dun tink will ever happen in real life.

Came across this small paragraph just now...

"Don't ever take for granted when people look in your eyes - you've no idea how lucky you are. Actually, forget about luck, you've no idea how important it is to be acknowledged, even if it is with an angry glare. It's when they ignore you, when they look right through you, that you should start worry."

How true! But people tend to not understand this. It's the day when the person who used to nag @ u, get angry with u, gets irritated by u and scolds u stop doing all these, you'll noe they are just looking through you. Only when there's still care and concern, people will then let themselves get affected by things the other person does. Till the day when they ignore you, things will nv b the same again.

~~I dread to tink that this would happen to people tt I loved to be in contact with.

Good weather to slack & sleep. I'm feeling so slpy for the 1st half of the day... Tink i'm not having enuff slp.. Haiz.. Sian... I miss my bed. How I wish I'm in bed now.... Cool weather, nice, soft pillow, warm blanket.... Argh!!!

Later gonna meet my ex-citi colleague.. Only for a short short while. But well, it has been postponed since long long time ago, so no matter how i dread to go, i have to.... City hall means 518 means long waiting time means no seats means expensive bus ride... Haiz..

I've been feeling light-hearted for the past few days. Took tings easy, tried to relax myself. Well, it definitely makes everything and everybody ard me better. Good! Now I'm very into getting healthy. Did research on California Fitness, Fitness First & True Yoga. If I had the money, I would join Fitness First! I tink they're much better and competitive in their membership benefits. But well, I dun tink I can join, nt in the near future...

And I'm tinking of going for osteopathy for my backbone and tailbone. It hurts. Thou I've had the curvature problem since primary sch, I dun feel the pain till the last few yrs.. Then I realise I had uneven legs and now, my tailbone is causing me problems with sitting down... Well, it all runs dw to the curvature spinal prob. It's kinda impossible to mk it straight anymore but there are chances that it can be straighten with osteopathy treatment. I wanna go for it cuz I really wanna be "normal".. But money is the main big prob. Cuz it's nt cheap@ all and considering it long term, I would have to be @ least financially stable which wun happen in the nx 2 yrs... Sad!!

So I thot of Yoga as it can help in correcting your posture to increase further pain and curvature. But again, nt cheap. Haiz.. Money, money, money..... It's nt ez to lead a 'normal' life with all the aches. I really have to count on the massages I receive from my dearest beh beh to move on. Haiz.. Sad...

Anyway, to digest a bit, I really wanna buy the La Senza Sports Jacket. $59 after 50% discount. Worth it? But it looks really good on me! Haha.. @ least tt's wat I think... OMG!!! I've been spending like nobody's business, I'm so guilty yet happy.. Haha... I tink i need to tink over it till maybe friday.. And probably I would action on it. Haha... So wat's the pt of tinking when I've already decided to buy rite? I duno man!! I'm always like tt... Crazy~!!

Quiz: How Optimistic Are You?
You scored 19, on a scale of 9 to 36.
15 - 21
Scattered showers: Your view of life is relatively balanced, but you lean more toward pessimism than optimism. Look on the bright side, though--you think negatively about the short-term but that doesn't seem to affect your view of life in general.

Try it @ Beliefnet-Optimistic


Quiz: What Kind of Traveler Are You?
You scored 25, on a scale of 1 to 40.
21 - 30
You're a Curious Traveler! You never know exactly how a trip is going to end, and you like it that way. Whether you go to a secluded resort or a bustling city, you're always open for new experiences. Hacienda del Cerezo in Santa Fe would be a good place for you.

Try it @ Beliefnet-Traveler


Quiz: Do You Have a Sixth Sense?
You scored 4, on a scale of 0 to 10.
3 - 5
Your intuition is quite active, but you have room to improve. Learn to trust yourself and let your instinct guide you.

Try it @ Beliefnet-Sixth Sense

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Here's a quite inspiring article teaching you how to "fight" Depression. Well, everyone of us goes thru depressing moments. Maybe try a few tricks here might help. I duno.. But no harm reading...

Came across the Catholic Online website. Somehow, it struck me that I haven't been religious enough. I really do not know what is in the Bible. Mayb I should go for Bible class and get myself closer to God. Even if I can't b as close to God, I can be closer to my Guardian Angel.

I remembered the church n my teacher did say that everyone of us has our own Guardian Angel. But I can't remember mine. I want to find out who that is and I want to get closer.

I got this from the website: A heavenly spirit assigned by God to watch over each of us during our lives. The doctrine of angels is part of the Church's tradition. The role of the guardian angel is both to guide us to good thoughts, works and words, and to preserve us from evil.

I need my Guardian Angel. Somehow, we got separated from each other. That's y I'm becoming more and more like a devil. When I see my Guardian Angel, this is what I'll most probably do...

"No evil shall befall you, nor shall affliction come near your tent, for to His Angels God has given command about you, that they guard you in all your ways. Upon their hands they will bear you up, lest you dash your foot against a stone." Psalm 91: 10-12

When u nd smone, muz there b a reason behind it? Wat if the reason is just "I need you"? Does it count? How many time did u felt you needed smone but no one was there? Countless, for me...

"You noe I need u but u pretend not to noe, y?" Do u always ask urself tt? I do.

~~many counts and STILL counting...~~

Everyday, smth or smone will mk the day a bad one for mi. Be it work, family, fren, bf or even strangers... I'm already looking like a 'black widow' today, I seriously dun need the mood to fit in!
Early morning, i was late for work.
Then I realise I forgot to bring the credit card and the account number.
But I was happy cuz I manage to get my timetable done and I only need to go to sch for 2 weekday.
Then I received sm unhappy emails.
Then I read an unhappy blog.
Then i spoke to an unhappy person.
Then I became unhappy.
Then I blog abt an unhappy entry.

You see how everything influences everything and everyone? Can't I juz ignore all the unhappiness? I'm sick of having short-lived happiness. Just ytd, I was piss w the damn SIM eCR. But my anger subsides very quickly as I went shopping and bought real cheap stuff. So cheap that I only spent [$20-$10voucher= $10] for 2 tops + 1 shoes. You see, shopping makes me happy. Yeah, but that is if I get good bargain. So I went home happily, taking 518 with Nad and we got seats, which was surprising as it's usually damn crowded and the best thing of all, I forgot to tap my ez-link when I board. I really din realise until I alight as it was giving me the error. Cool. A free ride home! So u see, overall, thou work sucks as usual, lunch wasn't tt fantastic, SIM portal was damn lousy, but I was happy @ the end of the day. I even 'showed off' my rewards to everyone @ hm! I feel so proud to buy cheap stuff. And i went to bed happy!

I thot I could be happy today. Cuz I managed to get my timetable done thou the SIM portal is still as lousy. But tt's all. My work still sucks big big time! But c, I really dun wanna mention y it is so bad. No point as I choose it myself. And I got myself into this damn contract. I swear I'm nv gonna work here after I graduate. People here aren't friendly, they dun 'socialise'. Work here is nt challenging, yet people are like so busy, can even complain abt stupid things like 'I'm so busy but I'm going off @ 530pm?!"

I heard this in the lift, from the damn-unfriendly-short-man-who-thinks-he's-damn-bloody-great-and-busy:
Woman: "Hey, how come you came from upstairs?"
Man: "Cuz I went up to give smth." (going home)
Woman: "Oh.."
Man: "Haiz, MY Ebonne is not ard, so busy... If 1 person can do 2 person's job, den y do they need to hire the extra person, rite?"
Woman: "Haha.. Ya la..."

So I was tinking and telling myself, "True, but if that's the case, why should the staff be entitled to long leave of 10 days in a row? And you should nv go on leave cuz ur Ebonne will have to do 2 person's job oso! And if u're so damn busy, y do I see u leaving office @ 5:30pm? This just mean smth, 1 person (in this place) can definitely do 2 person's job!!!"

Not tt I wanna compare, but seriously, you guys are damn lucky to work here. Busy?! You all probably nv had a taste of what being BUSY is really like. Try working in Citi, not trying to prove anything, but try it and u'll know! Cuz I bet u'll NEVER see daylight when you leave your office. Most of the time, I see stars when I left the office. Actually, to be accurate, it's literally everyday. Only on days that the moon will be 'blue', I'll see sunset.

Made a great blunder ytd... Like what my darling said, I only read what I wanna read. True! I've been reading it for the past 1 week, yet, I din realise, all along, it was written 'Year 2 Students going Year 3' (yellow underline)... So mine should be the the 2nd one.. Haiz... Maybe sub-consciously, I am hoping I'll graduate soon.. Haha...

So tinking that it was @ 6pm, I rush to my darling's place as it was nearer from my work place and I really reached his house on time. So there I was trying to access the portal for registration but it kept on giving me error, saying it's nt open yet. I tried till 6:10pm, still it gives me the error.. So I re-read this page again, word by word, trying to understand what each word means.. Finally, I understood! Good! But I feel so stupid... Cuz I even told Rong it was ytd.. Haiz... Both of us was so excited till I even wanted to help her register as she can't mk it ytd. Haiz........ I've been blurred for the past 1 week. Sad!!

So, I have to borrow my darling's laptop and gotta carry the so-called 'portable' but damn heavy computer ard today. Cuz I'm going Marina Square to shop later.. Haiz.. So I gotta chiong my way there, sit @ sm fast food restaurant w wireless broadband, login and start my registration... Kinda stupid la, but I dun wan to miss shopping. Haiz.. I'm so crazy w shopping, be it virtual or not. I feel like shopping online again! Die... But really got nice top!! Oh, and I tink it's kinda safe, cuz I've already received my 1st online item in good condition. Lurve it!!

~~I made a promise to myself in the bathroom this morning.. That is, to get a really portable laptop in future.

I'm forcing myself to read the online Business Times and Financial Times. Well, becuz I hope I wun have to force myself to read one of these days. It'll do me good to keep myself updated with the economy and the daily happenings, and of course, I'll be able to familarise myself with the financial jargons. I tink I'm very "bookworm" as in I only read my study guides and notes, but not what is really happening in the real world. Well, gotta get myself ready for the future! Haha... As if I'm gonna be some career woman.. Haha.. But well, it's kinda what I always imagine myself to be! :)

"I love Business Times!"
"I love Financial Times!"

Bored at work. Bored of surfing the Internet. Bored, bored bored. So I re-vamp my slide. But it doesn't take long too. So, am back to being bored again... Life is so, erm, bored?! But it's beautiful cuz I'm going on a holiday in like 3 weeks time! Haha... So the looking-so-damn-forward feeling is keeping me coming to work everyday. I tink it's difficult for me to drag myself to work after the holiday. Well, but it'll be only be like a few weeks b4 sch starts for me. So I should be able to tahan till then.

So it's the selection for timetable today. I had decided on the modules to take but only yesterday, den I discovered I need to take a compulsory module, thou they give you 3 choices. Yes, economics.... God, save me!!! I dun hate econs, I just can't excel in it. I wanna take modules that can help me path the way to my aim of 1st class honours or @ least 2nd upper, but haiz, tink I can only dream about it.... But oh well, @ least I'm nt taking modules like maths, so I guess I shld be relieve?! Hmmm.. I need to start revising very very soon.... Else, dun tink I can catch up. The thought of year 2 is kinda scary thou. Year 1 wasn't tt smooth and easy already, can't imagine year 2. Anyway, I'm gonna do my best and 'try' not be so lazy.. But it's really difficult cuz I'm really a slacker!!!

And so, the modules I'm taking would be mostly or maybe all financial modules. Accounts, financial reporting, corporate finance and Macroeconomics (maybe)... Initially, I wanted to try Law of Business Organisations, but well, becuz of econs, I had to give up law. Since year 1, I've been tinking of selecting law as an elective, cuz I guess it helps in one way or another. And I tink it'll be interesting... Haiz.. But well, I shld be taking other subjects tt are more useful and relevant..

So I've decided!! I need to chiong back home to be the kiasu student and login @ 6pm. I dun want a sucky timetable!!!

Sometimes, people ard you juz seems to be 'assassinating' you. Either with actions or with words. Even the person closest to or furthest away from you will do that. I know I 'assassinate' people sometimes, but I dun do it most of the time as I usually dun fake it! Yeah, the faking part comes in again.. I juz dun understand y sm people can fake it out and try n b nice to u for a moment, but 'stab' you the next moment. I still believe that, if you dun like me, den dun fake it! Cuz the feeling just sucks! I really dun mind losing you in my social circle.

I know tt's a really mean word to use. But pls, pardon me. I juz can't contain the anger in me. I've been thru so much "drama" already. I dun need 1 more!

Go get a life, bitch!!! It's ur own doings that's making guys DITCH u, ok?! Wake up! If u know how to portray urself as a decent woman, u will den find smone who treasures u n nt treat u like shit! If dying for a man is worth it, well then, y din u choose to jump down? Huh? Fast n guaranteed to die! I tell u, u r nt depress that u wanna die, u juz wan attention. Bloody attention seeker! Only stupid ppl will entertain u! I definitely wun ever buy that! And all the attention you need is from men! Hey! Can't live w/o men huh?! Need one so much till u gotta throw urself @ attached men?! Downright slutty fucking bitch! I feel so so like giving u one TIGHT slap!

Please juz go for a sex change. Cuz u r such a disgrace to women!

I duno wat I've done to deserve this. Why? Am I too lucky that I shld go thru sm sufferings every other week? I wish I could juz let go. Let go of everything. It's wrong. All from the start. I really had enuff..... Juz go...

I really nd the pills that erase bad memories. No doubt there are good ones, but I rather erase all away than keep any single one!

"Nad, could u buy me some? Or can I be a volunteer to let them try on mi? I seriously dun mind nt being paid a single cent! I dun wan all these useless memories!!!"

Came across this blog and totally agreed with what it says on the 1st entry. But it's scary tt tis kinda thing is happening to our neighbouring country, which is juz one causeway away... I really can't imagine how the ger felt when she was raped in front of the bf... It muz be traumatising for both. You can read the full article here. And I tink there were 4 cases of robbery cum raped cases thatt happened in juz 1 mth in Johor.

Here's a short summary:
On Monday 11 June, a 19-year-old woman was abducted with her boy-friend, and robbed. The couple was brought to an abandoned hut in Taman Tampoi Indah where she was gang-raped by three of the four robbers while her boyfriend was forced to watch. The case on Monday was the fourth known case since late April.
• Early May - 28 year old pregnant woman robbed and gang-raped in Plentong in the presence of three-year-old son, after robbers had forced their way and drove off the car at a petrol station near Tampoi where the husband had stopped to answer nature’s call.
• On May 22, another robbery-cum-gang rape took place in Pantai Lido, and about two weeks ago along the Pasir Gudang Highway.
• 5th June around 10 pm - A construction contractor and female companion at a petrol station at Pasir Gudang highway overpowered by three armed robbers who drove off with them as hostages. Both robbed and female victim gang-raped at Kempas area.
~Adapted from Sean

This is so so scary... It makes me tink twice if I shld go Johor later this month... Hmmm...

Had an "eating spree" with the gals last friday. We went to maxwell market to have the really-thumbs-fingers-up chicken rice, egg tart, hum chee peng and black sesame paste... Ate till we were so full... But nice... I like to indulge in good food, be it restaurants, hawker centres or coffee shops... N we went for a tour in the buddha tooth relic temple juz oppsite maxwell market. But we had to technically "wrap" ourself up as no mini-skirt, shorts, off-shoulder tops, bare shoulder tops, basically, revealing tops and bottoms are allowed. Luckily the loan of their sarongs are free-of-charge, else, dun tink we'll enter... But the sasd thing is, we were just in time for the closing ceremony of the tooth relic.. :( So we saw no tooth, or maybe it's relic? Actually, i'm nt sure what it is.. But I imagine it to b a tooth w colourful "pearls"! Haha..

And the finale for the day was midnight shopping @ Orchard. Kinda disappointed w Far East as most of the shops are closed. The only places whr business is as per normal were wisma and taka. Both jun and I got ourselves smth from topshop.. Hehe... We actually wanted to go back after the shopping as there were still buses and mrt, but we ended up @ Balcony for a drink. We still wanted to just chill for a while and catch the last bus home, but the place was juz so nice that we decided to hang ard longer since it's sat tmr and order snackies.. Haha.. This sounds more of like "piggies-night-out"... Oh, and Balcony really has cool chairs. Rocking chairs for all patrons on the 1st level.. Cool, u can juz sit, chill, 'rock' urself (sounds kinda disgusting) and chit chat till the wee hours... Oh, and 1 great thing abt the place is that, they're open 24hrs. How cool.. We jokingly mentioned that we can juz sit and wait for breakfast to be serve and catch the 1st train/bus home.. Haha... But of course we din...

Anyway, photos are w jun...

**"Jun, send the photos soon ya? :)"

Ok, realise I spelt 'Queue' as 'Quene'...

Oh, how stupid!!!

Haha.. I did smth daring today. I left for lunch ard 12 and went to UOB to quene up for a change of savings account to campus account. But the quene was damn long... So after waiting for half an hr, i decided to go buy lunch, then go bk to office n eat, then come down to UOB again (the 2 building are juz separated by a road, haha...) So I did as plan, but I was kinda late as I miss my quene number after I went down around 1.15... So I took another quene number and again, I have to wait for another 22 people b4 my turn. So I went back to office and decide to come down about half an hr later. But again, I missed my quene! F***!! So i took the 3rd number for day.. Luckily, there was an abandoned number and it was 2 number ahead of the number that I actually told... But still, I had to wait for like 14 people.... But being so damn determined to get this done by today, I sat and waited! Haha... And it was 1.45 already.. Luckily quite a few people din turn up for their numbers, so I only had to wait 15mins... But the whole process took ard 30mins... Kinda long, but @ least, it's done!!! Finally!!! It has been weighing on my mind for like the past 9 months or so (cuz the date on the application form stated sep 06... Haha...) But I was only bk to office ard 245... Luckily no one notice!! Heng ah!!! And the best thing of all is, I told the counter staff who was serving me tt I actually took time-off from work, but I din tell her it was "self-declared". Haha...

So now, I have my campus account which comes w chequing facility & higher interest as compared to normal savings account! Cool, I hav my own cheque book.. Hehe... But no money in account, so it's kinda useless... ;P