It's a brand new year again.. 2006.. Had quite a good start but do not know if it will last.. But watever it is, I am kinda happy since day 1 of 2006! Haha.. Sometimes, I wonder if i'm dreaming.. Things can happen so fast till I'm really caught unaware! But mayb it will go as fast as it came.. Oh well, i'm just negative, very..

A piece of good/bad news!! I'm renewing my contract till end of the year and had a pay increment.. Happy that my pay has finally increase but i will have to be stuck in "shitty bank".. Wonder if i can take it!! Haha... Not that the work sucks but with the kinda "great" colleagues, it sure makes a big difference!!

I'm thinking... Should I let it happen or stop it now? Will history repeat itself? Or something worse will happen? And is it really true or just for fun? Wat if i fail again? Oh no... So much headache... Should just let nature takes it's course but you know.. the heart and mind just won't co-operate!! Not good at all! Cuz it's definitely affecting me in watever I do... Tried to work and work, but doesn't seems to help... Hmmm... How how??? How I wish it did not even happen, at least i'm still carrying on as usual.. Aiya, confusing.. But I think it all just comes down to one word "FEAR"!! Wonder how and when it will go away..