Yeah.. Like the title says.. I'm tired and lazy.. Back aching badly.. Im realli old... In the past, I could still tk it but not now anymore...
It has definitely been a long long time since I've felt tis way.. Yes, broke down but tried to control.. Luckily I had Nad with mi to hear mi out.. I guess she feels my pain.. I had a conclusion that all guys are the same. When things happen, they say the same words, react the same way.... I thot he was really different from the past ones but he's just another one of them. Saying sweet nothings to mi!? I'm not gonna buy tt! I'm no little innocent, naive ger here.. I've been thru quite alot and I know what is what.. I dun appreciate sweet talks at all! It's all crap to mi. If u mean it, show it to mi... To hell with all ur sweet words.. I hate it! I tink guys will never understand how gers feel and tink.. Mayb gers too... We will always be 2 very different beings.... And when 2 are too different, it's really hard to be together.. I seriously dun wanna try so hard, put in so much effort to mk it work. Mayb i'm selfish as many will say so, but I'm juz protecting myself. I nv ever wanna b a fool again..
I really feel so sianz...... Work and Him.. I hav to learn how to manage and handle both.. It's really not easy and I feel so tired.. At work, I have to put up with the bitches.. After work, sometimes, I have to learn to accomodate, give in, compromise with him. Sometimes, I am just too numb and tired to get angry with anyone of them. I'll just swallow it and go to slp.. Mayb tt's y the stress and anger has been building up, just like hot lava.. And today, it's the day of eruption! I suddenly become so emotional, stress and tired that I feel I'm basically floating....
